i need to exhaust my lungs today.
they miss climbing mountains.
cool water. fresh air. pine.
. him .
miles between here and there
sometimes i feel torn between the places i am
and those i desire to be
guilty, to not be content with the present moment
perhaps it is the impermanence of being a student
discovering what it is i call home
is it here?
where i was?
where i long to be?
at least i know when i feel at home
something feels undone
or perhaps undiscovered
as if on the verge of finding some great perspective
or new strength
today my body needs to test itself
sweat & breathe hard
i feel connected to myself that way
the restlessness will then be dealt with in my studio
perhaps it will churn new exciting creations
so by tomorrow,
i hope there is something new and exciting
to give to the world.