Sunday, August 8, 2010

keeping steady - sand pulls beneath my feet


it's been a difficult couple weeks, and it's not usual for me to open so personally in my writings.
but i feel i must.

my father left my mother
nearly 30 years of marriage
completely unexpectedly.

(i was in town visiting when it happened. this is an extended visit on account of these events)
my heart aches for my mother,
who desires to grow old with my father

we are confused, angry, sad
emotions come in waves
ever changing

an image comes to mind:
i'm wading in the ocean
the tide rushes
sand is swept from under my toes
for a second it feels as though i shall fall or be swept away
then my feet steady themselves.

i want to be a rock for my mother
i wish to understand my father
it is a time of uncertainty
but i know we till get through it

may these muddied waters will grow clearer over time

for now we're hold on to each other
looking for beauty wherever we can
this was a lovely gift the other night:



xx,
Lynsey

6 comments:

CrowNology said...

I'm so sorry.
I hope for your Mother.
and you.
and your dad too.
xo
Andrea

Lynsey Phelps - VerreEncore said...

thank you, Andrea
your thoughts mean so much!

Lynsey x

Courtney said...

I am so sorry for you all. I hope that everything can be figured out and you and your mom and dad can move on, which ever direction that may be. My heart hurts for you.

Lynsey Phelps - VerreEncore said...

thank you for your kindness, Courtney x

time will tell. it will also bring healing to our hearts.

Emily said...

Oh Lynsey,

I'm so sorry! I had a similar situation about a year ago (which thankfully ended quite differently) and I can absolutely relate to all of these feelings. My thoughts are with you.

xoxo
em

Lynsey Phelps - VerreEncore said...

thank you, Emily. x

gosh, each day brings new challenges. i'm just trying to be strong when i can... and accept when i cannot.

all there is, is to be here for each other.